Say hello to goodbye :)

Well,after two months just a blink of eyes he's now gone and forever gone .
I wont miss him , told myself not to miss him .
But sometimes the moment will cross my mind .
How can you be so heartless?
Its over :)

Never ever :')

Never Say I love you if you don't really care,
Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there.
Never hold my hand if you're going to break my heart.
Never say you're to, if you never plan to start.
Never look into my eyes if all you do is lie.
Never say hello, if you really mean goodbye.

I lost you - Katherine McPhee

I could take this room and this house and this bed
Just as long as I'm feeling this way
And boy, since you been away, I can't sleep
I've been awake
I just lay here tryin to deal with this pain

Four walls and no you
The silence in this room is so loud
No one else can fix it but you

It's just so hard to face
I lost you
Why'd I throw your heart away
Now I'm going down like I'm on the ground
I lost you
I lost you

I'm sittin here wishin I could change the facts
Knowing deep inside, can't get my baby back
I lost you
I lost you
Oh baby I just can't stand the way that I lost you

VERSE 2
I can try to put the pieces of the picture back together
But it just don't look the same
Feel sick, I need a medic
Cause my heart's not beating
And I feel like I'm slaving away

And I don't know how I'm gonna make it
I'm going crazy
But maybe somehow you can find your way
Find your way back to me

It's just so hard to face
I lost you
Why'd I throw your heart away
Now I'm going down like I'm on the ground
I lost you
Now I'm so sad I lost you

And I'm sittin here wishin I could change the facts
Knowing deep inside, can't get my baby back
I lost you
I lost you
And I can't stand the way that I lost you

It's just so hard to face
I lost you
Why'd I throw your heart away

I give up

I want a place that I can
cry out as loud as I can until I get over you.
I will try to forget everything about you and not
to miss you JOEL LIM !

Again and again

I guess no one can really stand this .
Not even one .
whole wall is full of her?
tell me who can stand this and keep it inside hurt themself so much
like going to die .
Stupid ,Idiot Jessie poh
I hurt myself more than i had thought.

FUCK MY LIFE ! EVERYTHING IS JUST SO FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wtf is this ???????????????????????????
I just cant stop my eyes to see all those fuck stuffs !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I lost my patient !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im not okay with it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK LIFE
FUCK EVERYTHING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is just so FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want a place that I can hide everything !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK U LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For you :/

I might not get to see you as often as I'd like, I may not get to hold you in my arms at night, but deep in my heart I know that it's true. No matter what happens... I will always love you .I  try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.Yes I love him. I love him more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold him. But I know it's not for the best. So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I love him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back, but if not, I can make it through this.I miss the talks we used to have, I miss the voice I used to hear... I miss hearing your crazy and nonsense stuffs, and above all these... I just miss you

:: Im not tough ::

I know I should be brave, but I’m just too afraid of all this change, and it's too hard to focus through all this doubt.

This is what I used to be :(

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

This is life

How nice if I can
stop my mind to the things that I dont wanna think,stop my heart to the things that I dont wanna feel,Close my eyes to the things that I dont wanna see,Close my ears to the things that I dont wanna hear.

Heartache

Well, trying not to care that much .
Shouldnt put so much hope on it.
Sometimes must learn to let go things .
this isnt a circus, dont you play me for a clown

You and your partner

When did you guys start dating? 16th of April 2011
How long have you been dating for? 1 month plus
How did you meet? From my friend ? XD
Do you love him/her? Yes I do
Do you want to spend the rest of your life with that person? Yes I do
Does he/she make you feel like you are something? I dont know ?
Does he/she make you laugh and happy? Of cause but he make me sad sometimes
Have you kissed? Yes
Do you like being with that person? Yes.
Would you cry if he had to go far away forever? Obviously Yes I would
Do you like that person for looks or personality? Both.
Would he/she die for you? Ask him
Would you die and for him/her? If he is worth? Haha lol
Does your lover make you smile? He always does sometimes sad :D
Does he/she support you in everything you do? I dont know
Does he/she try to be there everytime you need them? Ask him
Are you always constantly thinking about the person you love? Yes always and never stop
Do you dream about him/her? Sometimes :)
Do you want to spend the rest of your life with that person and raise a family? Yes I do if can
Do you love her/him with all your heart and soul? what a nonsense question :D Of cause I do <3

Insecure

Whatever it is , life still go on .
Nothing will changed only will leave some foot prints
Im still trying my best to fight for it.
Make sure you really love them before you said it.

AWESOME

You don't know
You can't see
What really goes on
Inside of me
My eyes shield
How I feel inside
You don't know
How much I've cried
My mouth restricts
What I'd really say
And make you think
I'm perfectly okay
I know you tried
You mean well
But I have things
I'd never tell
To truly laugh
To really smile
Is something I haven't
Done in a while
You'll never know
How I really feel
I don't know how long
It will take to heal.
Just know that
I still love you
After everything
That I've been through.
You'll never see
Inside my mind
I'm protecting you
From what you'd find.
I protect you because
I love you so.
This is my pain
You'll never know.

Thats hurt

Forget his name, forget his face
Forget his kiss and his warm embrace
Forget the love that once came true
Remember now there's someone new,

Forget the love that you once shared
Forget the face that had once cared
Forget the time you spent together
Remember now he's gone forever,

Forget you cried the whole night through
Forget him when they play your song
Forget how close you two once were
Remember now he's chosen her,

Forget you memorized his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the times he was mad
Remember he's happy instead of sad,

Forget his teasing, gentle ways
Forget you saw him everyday
Forget he made your dreams come true
Remember now she loves him too,

Forget the thrill when he walked by
Forget him when he made you cry
Forget the way he spoke your name
Remember now he's not the same,

Forget the way he said he loved you
Forget the way he kissed and hugged you
Forget all those nights when he held you tight
Remember now he holds her tonight,

Forget all those sunny days
Forget all those poems he made
Forget those times through good and bad
Remember he said he'd never make you sad,

Forget the games he played with you
Forget the times he stayed with you
Forget those cold, cold nights
Remember now he keeps her warm tonight,

Forget the way he looked at you
Forget you kissed the whole night through
Forget all you dreams came true
REMEMBER, that he doesn't love you

Why Guys Love Girls:

1.The way they always smell good even if it's just shampoo
2.The way they always find the right spot on our shoulder
3.How cute they look when they sleep
4.The ease in which they fit into our arms
5.The way they kiss you and make everything alright in the world
6.How cute they are when they eat
7.The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end its all worth while
8.The way they are always warm even if its minus 30 degrees
9.The way they look good no matter what they wear
10.The way she fishes for compliments even though you both know shes the most beautiful thing on this earth
11.how cute they are when they argue
12.How their hand always seems to find ours
13.The way they smile
14.The way you feel when you see her name on the caller id after you've had a big fight
15.The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know an hour later...
16.The way they kiss you when youve done something nice for her
17.The way they kiss you when you say"i love you"
18.Actually.. just the way they kiss you
19.The way they fall into your arms when they cry
20.Then apologizing for crying over something that silly
21.The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22.Then the way they apologize when it really does hurt (even though we dont admit it!)
23.The way they say "I miss you"
24.The way you miss them
25.The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesnt hurt her anymore...Yet regardless whether you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them... it matters not.Because once in your life whatever they were to the world they become the world to you.When you look them in the eyes traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without a trace of sound you know that your own life is inevitably consumed with the rhythmic beatings of her very own heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of a mind, but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

The meaning of love

Love is when you can't be apart from someone for too
long...you're always thinking of them, and when you're with them you never want to say goodbye. Love is far from simple. It's quite complex. It's a mix of about everything. It's
sadness, joy, passion, hatred, excitement, it's almost
every feeling you can imagine and more. You know love when you
find it, it's that person that when they smile it brightens
up your day, you can't stop staring at them for fear of losing
them, they're always on your mind, you daydream of being with
them, even if they're less than 20 feet away...and you
can't stand it when they're not with you, the worst feeling you
could ever feel is when you know that person you love is not with you...you can't tell when love will happen, you just know when it does, that moment when you first lay eyes on that person, and you never want to look away...that is love. Nothing less.

Dear Girls (from us guys)... Is is real? lmao

*Don't assume that guys won't care where you are, because we do.
It makes us feel secure to know that our girlfriends aren't off flirting with guys we've never heard of.

*Also, don't talk about your ex-boyfriends.
We never have, nor ever will respect or like them, nor do we want to hear about them.
When you do, you're asking your boyfriend to be jealous.
You're asking your boyfriend to lose trust.

*On that, don't hump everything that walks into the room.
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

*Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.

*Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Smile and say "thank you."
Let us pay for you.
Don't "feel bad."
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say - everybody together now - "thank you."

*Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know nobody's looking we'll be more impressed.

*You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have, put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.

*Don't flirt with guys when we're not around.
We'll find out. Trust us.
We have eyes everywhere.
And when we find out, we're pissed.
Not necessarily with the guys you flirted with, more-so with you.

*Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

*Don't talk about how hot Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.

*Whatever happened to the word "handsome"?
Why does everything have to be "hot/sexy"?
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
Claiming girls or guys to be "hot" shows immaturity.

**Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change.
Ditch his sorry, disgrace-to-the-male-population ass, and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

I agree with this .

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention
When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once
When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it
When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future
When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that.

smiley face :)

You smile ,I smile :) No matter what happened.

They're meaningful :) thats why I like them :D

Relationships

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

Everyday

Thank God for giving me life :)
Without God I wont be able to live in this world.
Everyday I learned something new.
Nice huh ? :D
Amazing .

SAD,HAPPY,MOODY,DREAM,CRY,HURT,SPEECHLESS,
APPRECIATE,FORGIVE,FORGET,LOVE,LAUGHTER,JOY.

Life .

An old granny lived with 4 doggies.  :)
4 brown adorable doggies .
Stay healthy and happy auntie ;)
Awesome <3

Learn to love animals , appreciate them.
Take care of them .
Stop abusing Idiot !

Life is not all about love for couples but
Love everything around you.

Fool again? what about now?

What are words? If you really dont mean them when u said them?
You're not determined.
You're not prepared.
You only need them when you're lonely.
You're not sincere .
You changed your mind easily.
You hurted them deeply.
You won't see them crying.
You don't care .
You make them worried which u dont realised.
You come easily and go easily.
You will never be replaced .
Dont tell someone you love them if you dont.
Dont give them promises.
Dont give them hope if there's no chance between both of you.
Dont say sorry . sorry wont change anything.
They dont wanna fight no more.
I will act like I dont care.
I will try to forget u as well.
I cant take it anymore.
Im a coward.
I dont like to face the fact.
I started to understand everything about life and love.
I lose all hope and confident.
Im back to the old lonely me.
I dont want to fall deeper , It hurts a lot .
Leave me alone if you dont like me.
Its hard for me to fake a smile infront the others.
I pretend im okay but im not.
Im afraid of everything.

As time goes by ,I realise things do change quickly .
If you love something let it go ,
If it comes back to you its your.
If it doesnt ,it never was.

</3

What are words

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

Lalalala

JOEL LIM SZE QI :P

I dont know :/

I think when u really fall for someone so deeply , I think u would give
up everything just to be with her.
This is what I feel or guess? I dont know

:)

Feeling happy :)
Hope this moment wont end.
And we wont lost contact .

:)

Thanks for the hug ;)

EVERYTHING THAT YOU HAD SAID WAS JUST A LIE UNTIL YOU LEFT .

Tomorrow onwards

Gonna make my life different starts form tomorrow onwards .
Wasted a lot of times. Out from all these fools . Do what I supposed to do
as a student.         God please guide me to the right way :)

:(

Seriously I hate that
Yes,Im moody D;
Confused yet sad.

I am so confused,
what should I do?
I can't think of anything

Form 4

Im back from tuition
Maths tuition at Farlim Forest.
Chapter 6 so fast .
Im blur and new to it
My class still chapter 3 'SETS'
Account's homework still havent do .
Chapter 4 is a little bit confusing.
But no matter what,will find a way to solve it.
For addmaths ,im totally speechless.

Addmaths , Account , Maths is killing me slowly
:( *down



Middle of May exam again . OMG

~Huggie~

I need a big warm teddy bear hug right now.
Too long never get hug d ;)


Cute right ?


Try this , then you cant breath


~thats all ~

Start Again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d2nun6e2oAc
Baby, it breaks my heart that you don’t smile anymore
I’m dying to help you heal but you won’t unlock your door
You say it takes time, but you don’t have to spend it alone

You’re stuck in the memory that you desperately to rewind
You’re too busy looking back, won’t you make another try
Now your trust is gone, but you won’t find it again on your own

So don’t go telling me it’s too late to start
You’re still holding a broken heart
But if you let me in (let me in)
Baby, you can start again (start again)

And don’t go telling me there’s no second chance
You’ll understand when you take my hand
Baby let me in (let me in)
I promise we will start again (start again)

Trying to get to you so I make this promises
I swear they are breakable, but you still just hearing hiss
I won’t let you go ’til you decided you want to be free

You’re haunted by yesterday and still sore from the fall
All you need is to whitewash this old walls
Paint something new, if you let yourself listen to me

Don’t give up yet, I won’t let you close the curtain too soon
We can reset, you can take the leap and let me show you
You just gotta make the choice.. yeah..

We love , we lose, and you think that the best defense is distance
You know, what now, put it on the mute so you can listen
But there’s a way out of here, just follow my voice

So don’t go telling me it’s too late to start
You’re still holding a broken heart
But if you let me in
Yeah….



peace yo :)

April fools is the best day to confess :)

A=  I love you , I think im falling for you . I cant control my feelings

B= Huh ?  ......

A=What about you ?

B= I don't know .

A= Oh okay then  *sigh* . Don't take it real ''April Fools''

B=Duh ..

______________________________________________________________________

A= I love you

B=Are you serious ?

A=Yes Im serious about it .

B=Awww I love you :) *hug

This is not a fools :P





Tomorrow is the best day to confess to someone tht you like them :)
Good luck guys :)

Today

Today i donated money for them
Guess how much ? 1 bucks only.
Im not stingy , is because of some reasons.
I pity those dolphins that has been killed cruely , slaughtered and suffer to death for their meats.



I hope you guys will understand what I mean.

Stop killing animals !

Nevermind .

              

Someone did that , I knew it
Its okay for me .
Someone put conditioner on my chair and i sat on it .
When I realised is just too late and my skirt is wet .
If they feels happy,good.
I don't know who did that
But God know and you know .
I started to hate my class.

Deng deng :D

Dont say me kepo ya :)

Guess what ? LOL

Today i saw an Indian couple kissing oppsite my house's field .

Wondering ..

That guy sat there and the girl lyed on his leg

and that guy bend down. Woahh :D

This is the second time d .

Good luck ;)

:(

我的好你永远都看不见！

Fire burning

1 ~ I don't Lie , I dont act , I don't want people to feel pity for me.

2 ~ If u don't treat me as a friend,Fine

3 ~ If u don't like me . Just tell me

4 ~ It hurts me a lot , when my friend treat me like this

5 ~ Feel like wanna cry out loud !

6 ~ If u dont believe me is okay , I don't need your trust

7 ~ Acting is really hard

8 ~ Sometimes when ppl talk they're just too over and I don't care that much

9 ~ I got feelings too

10 ~ Done

Thursday

Today schoolday was quite fun ;)

Just back from school im shoooo tired and sleepy zzzz
Cannot sleep or nap or else tonight sure insomnia . ps* I hate that

Who wanna accompany me to insomnia together ? XD

haha with my uniform ;D

Oh ya , later must find some way to solve the Accounts D=

Forget it =/

Forget it !

You're a fool !

People forgot you easily ! Then dont even wanna reply you any single word ! Stop being a fool . Come back to your studies . You're too naive just too naive . FOOLISH !

Countdown :)

4 more days to monthly exam .

Okay ,i cannot concentrate with my book

and i dont know why , my brain cannot function so awesome well like last time.

Awwww :] this is just a crap.

11 more days , my new bed will come .

Quite excited. waited so long d . hope didnt postpone lar .

To that small kitty , rest in peace . :( everything happened for a reason

To another kitten , hope you're still alive .

Friday ~

Today is the second class of my piano class.

The teacher praised me ''actually you're quite good mar''

then at last im blur cause of new notes and everything . haha

After class , went to ''the house of the poor little sister's home''.

Go visit greatgranpa and Polly (parrot)

She so cute !!!  when she listen to music she starts to dance and sing xD lol

60 years old d her . old Polly .

Then talked with an autie :) she told me to study well.

Yesshh autine !! i will

The went to eat with mama , walking to the coffee shop

i heard ''meow''meow''meow''

then i squard down omg the kitten walking to my direction

the bought a fish for her then fetch her to a malay kampung :)

hope she can survive lar and also got food for her. hmmm

thats all for today :]

Tomorrow is saturday .

Mr.right

Mr.Right ?

I think ,

When the time is right , the right one will come . :)

I'm just making a smart guess  .

Pizza-hut

Came back from school and went to pizza-hut with family

Cant believe i ate so much :X

3 pieces of pizza,1 mushroom soup,1 bread,2 chicken wings,1 half chicken wing and 1 pepsi .

My weight going to increase already , i guess . hahaha

Exam next week , i wants top 3 .. but... dont know i can do it or not .

hhmmm, i dont think so :O





awwwwwwww :(

Yesterday and today

Yesterday was really tired.

10 something i lyed down on bed immediatly fall asleep already.

Went to sports training . xD but raining so we sat at canteen .

Today at school really busy . Dont know why also .

After school stayback for club seni .

After club seni go home about half an hour eat , bath then rush to tuition again .

Then went to ate chicken chop with mama . yummy

What a hectic life? :O

Miss him

Sucks

First , extremely sorry to her for the table thinggy .

She's bad mood and I didnt know that this will happen .

Second , I hate marching .

Third , my mood gone down and im moody and walked back to class .

To calm down I do my maths work alone and a group of retard keep on knocked the table and is really annoying.

So i shouted him and he fight back.

I scolded him so '' like to knock table wait your mum n dad F* time go knock la ''. Guess what ? i cried .

Im not crying because of that retard is just i dont like it when someone did wrong and refuse to admit and fight back.

And once again sorry to her

Smile

So guys what's your happiest moment?

I got my happiest moment but the moment wont last long.

After it happened then it turned to memories.

No matter how you flash back u just cannot remember everything that happened on that day .

Hmmm, how sad right? chill :) at least it happened before .

Okie, i watched a video the title is 'Im so annoying .If one day im gone , will you miss me?

Seriously , i love this title really much

can i get an answer?

Saturday

Today suppose to be school day , but i skipped school today :D

Wheee, hope my class teacher never teach anything lar

Went to gurney today :)

Piano

Today is the first day i went to piano lesson class.

After that bought a Keyboard piano Rm630+ by my own money .

It took me few years to save this amount of money :(

Im so tired , and i dont know why ?

明明很想哭，却还在笑,
明明很在乎，却装作無所谓

Form 4 life

I'm exhausted :( with school activities , tuition and also my studies .

Form 4 life is not honeymoon .

Everything are important .

Nothing is easy in our life

You dont take things for granted
You just have to work for it

Where are you ?

.That Guy.

There's always gonna be that guy.

No matter how long you dont talk for ,

no matter how long u never see each other .

You always come back to him and fall in love all over again .

Although he is doesnt belongs to u but you know that he's happy and you're happy .

You dont mind he dont likes u .

He's the one you keep thinking all night long and day .

Yes , he's different from other guy .

Yes , he dont care bout you .

but why your mind is all about him?