Say hello to goodbye :)

Well,after two months just a blink of eyes he's now gone and forever gone .
I wont miss him , told myself not to miss him .
But sometimes the moment will cross my mind .
How can you be so heartless?
Its over :)

Never ever :')

Never Say I love you if you don't really care,
Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there.
Never hold my hand if you're going to break my heart.
Never say you're to, if you never plan to start.
Never look into my eyes if all you do is lie.
Never say hello, if you really mean goodbye.

I lost you - Katherine McPhee

I could take this room and this house and this bed
Just as long as I'm feeling this way
And boy, since you been away, I can't sleep
I've been awake
I just lay here tryin to deal with this pain

Four walls and no you
The silence in this room is so loud
No one else can fix it but you

It's just so hard to face
I lost you
Why'd I throw your heart away
Now I'm going down like I'm on the ground
I lost you
I lost you

I'm sittin here wishin I could change the facts
Knowing deep inside, can't get my baby back
I lost you
I lost you
Oh baby I just can't stand the way that I lost you

VERSE 2
I can try to put the pieces of the picture back together
But it just don't look the same
Feel sick, I need a medic
Cause my heart's not beating
And I feel like I'm slaving away

And I don't know how I'm gonna make it
I'm going crazy
But maybe somehow you can find your way
Find your way back to me

It's just so hard to face
I lost you
Why'd I throw your heart away
Now I'm going down like I'm on the ground
I lost you
Now I'm so sad I lost you

And I'm sittin here wishin I could change the facts
Knowing deep inside, can't get my baby back
I lost you
I lost you
And I can't stand the way that I lost you

It's just so hard to face
I lost you
Why'd I throw your heart away

I give up

I want a place that I can
cry out as loud as I can until I get over you.
I will try to forget everything about you and not
to miss you JOEL LIM !

Again and again

I guess no one can really stand this .
Not even one .
whole wall is full of her?
tell me who can stand this and keep it inside hurt themself so much
like going to die .
Stupid ,Idiot Jessie poh
I hurt myself more than i had thought.

FUCK MY LIFE ! EVERYTHING IS JUST SO FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wtf is this ???????????????????????????
I just cant stop my eyes to see all those fuck stuffs !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I lost my patient !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im not okay with it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK LIFE
FUCK EVERYTHING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is just so FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want a place that I can hide everything !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK U LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For you :/

I might not get to see you as often as I'd like, I may not get to hold you in my arms at night, but deep in my heart I know that it's true. No matter what happens... I will always love you .I  try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.Yes I love him. I love him more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold him. But I know it's not for the best. So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I love him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back, but if not, I can make it through this.I miss the talks we used to have, I miss the voice I used to hear... I miss hearing your crazy and nonsense stuffs, and above all these... I just miss you

:: Im not tough ::

I know I should be brave, but I’m just too afraid of all this change, and it's too hard to focus through all this doubt.

This is what I used to be :(

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

This is life

How nice if I can
stop my mind to the things that I dont wanna think,stop my heart to the things that I dont wanna feel,Close my eyes to the things that I dont wanna see,Close my ears to the things that I dont wanna hear.

Heartache

Well, trying not to care that much .
Shouldnt put so much hope on it.
Sometimes must learn to let go things .
this isnt a circus, dont you play me for a clown